Sunday, November 09, 2008

Our Story : Chapter 1 - Coming Out

I can remember when Pooh first came out to me. I was shaking, nervous, and anxious. My palms were sweaty and I couldn't look him in the eye. I was surprised and didn't know what to say. How could my straight best friend of 2 years suddenly tell me that he's gay? Deep inside I knew that I felt that way because I had a crush on him all this time but knew that nothing could ever come of it because he was straight. It's a strange feeling to finally come to terms and accept the fact that it could never happen, then suddenly, in an instant, a door opens. A door of opportunity seemed to have magically appeared out of nowhere. The question would seem to be - Do I rush right in before that door suddenly closes? Do I enter with caution? Or do I do nothing?

We were going to Green Tea House when Pooh came out to me. We were in his car and we had just parked when he blurted it out. I told him I didn't believe him and I didn't. I thought he was joking. He even asked me to let him borrow some of my porns so he could prove that he was gay. I had a VHS of "Fortune Nookie" with Brandon Lee that I let him borrow a few days later - when I handed it to him I told him he wasn't going to watch them.

Since I was in shock and couldn't believe him at the moment, I decided to change the subject. We got out of the car to get some Boba. I had an Almond Milk Tea with green boba. Pooh got his favorite Green Apple and Strawberry slush with green boba. In the back of my mind the thought of Pooh being into guys swirled around and confused me. Was he always gay? Since I was his only gay friend, was it me that made him gay? Why did he come out to me? Is he already talking to someone? How would I feel if he hooked up with a guy...and had a boyfriend?

At the time, I had actually given up on guys and was dating a girl. Yes, a female. When Pooh came out to me he didn't say that he was into me or anything. He had just simply decided to tell me that he was into guys. For some reason, I was sad. I had always thought of Pooh as being a great guy and great boyfriend material. I always told him how he'd make a girl really happy to have him. Pooh was going out with a girl when we first met and I was able to observe how sweet he was and how incredibly caring he was with her. As I sipped on my Almond Milk Tea, I started to feel a sadness inside. I guess maybe I started to feel a bit jealous. I started thinking that even though there might of be a chance with us, I was already with someone. And then it occurred to me...he won't be single for long. He'll find a guy and be that lucky guy's incredibly caring, incredibly sweet, and incredibly perfect bf.

It would be quite a while before the "Pooh and Tiggah" actually came to be.


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39 comments:

raeshad said...

hey tiggah [and pooh too xD]

i've became a silent reader for so long. have enjoyed your entries since forever and i particularly love your part 1 of coming out story.

promise will be commenting more if i can :D

and can't wait for parts 2, 3, 4, and infinity......

:D

Anonymous said...

yep, can't wait for the next part. thx for sharing

Anonymous said...

pleeezzz...i will be leaving for work in a while...sana, may part 2 na when i come home...i can't concentrate on work anymore...huhuhu!

Anonymous said...

finally! the story i've been waiting for you to write about, tigz! keep it coming (pun intended)! you and pooh are so adorable! after every post i tell my boyfriend about what you guys did and he says it's almost like i'm friends with you guys! haha! thanks for making my day all sweet and sunny! wishing you all the best! :)

johnny said...

your amazing and your story is really touching. Keep it up you are my idols...

kimd said...

that was great! i wish you more years ahead.:D

Ande "ahnday" said...

Hey what a nice story! Actually David was into girls when I first met him and then I have no idea what happened.

JOCK said...

Finally, this is what we're waiting for couple of years.

Keep going ... we will stand beside you ;)

Jock & Win from Thailand.

Dhon said...

Very inspiring.. in fact i am linking this entry to my blog.. if it's okey with you.. let me know!

stained210 said...

guys, i am a follower of your blog. im so amused by your entries i love all of them. and ...and now, im already a certified FAN. to be honest already linked and addded you in my blog. i also made a post for you guys. again, thank you for the inspiration.

http://stained210.blogspot.com/2008/11/tigguh-tigz-pooh-burr-love-story.html

Anonymous said...

i can't wait for part two!

its me jhone said...

i'm so excited for the second part =)

j3d said...

you are a very good story teller... i enjoyed reading this entry immensely... can't wait to read the whole story...

Anonymous said...

Finally it came out! I too have some "straight" close friends but I'm having doubts if they really are straight. It also made me think if I made them gay. I hope I'm proven wrong but if I'm right I hope that they will confess it to me. I think I'll just have to wait for them until their ready. God Bless!

Geisha said...

i need the continuation... heheheh

i have been a fan of this blog! galing!

Ben said...

Hi Tiggah,

I love your entry and i've been reading it like over and over.... Well, i hope that i can find someone like your boyfie... (praying)... yeah, I always be your blog-fan. And keep posting oKay!

Ben

Clark Can't said...

This is the post that I have been waiting for so long....Thanks for finally sharing! Can't wait to read the rest. Take care. XOXO!

rcloy said...

finally!! keep it coming, its good.. =) thanks for sharing.. take care..

fuchsiaboy said...

so sweet :)

i can totally relate the feeling of confusion and jealousy.

Quentin X said...

sweet.

Anonymous said...

wahhh, im checking for updates everyday... im like addicted to your story already and you're just in the beginning!! Damnit, haha, hope to hear more of your story soon. SOONER would be a looot BETTER :) hehe thanks for sharing. Really, you're an inspiration.

Eternal Lover said...

i'm really envious of you guys! wish you the best of luck, imagine, 7 years, you guys are going strong! it is the perfect love story!

SAM said...

Thats a right beginning. This is how it is! always!

untamedfox said...

Kudos to you tiggah! the world needs more love stories! gay ones to be exact.

I must admit I have the biggest crush on your pooh.

You two are very lucky to have found each other.

Always remember to cherish each other because not everyone has what you guys have.

Heres to a never ending love story!

Cheers!

wilfei said...

YOU ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE FOUND YOUR MATE SOULMATE PERHAPS!!!LET'S READ MORE,WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST IN THIS WORLD!

Jake said...

Chapter One...i'm hooked hehe.

Constantin said...

eh nice feature.. I was just wondering... What's green boba? I can't finD it in a dictionary (sorry i'm french :)
I've leafed through your blog-diary, and you two guys look like the happiest gay couple on earth (I might be slightly exaggerating...)
>>> WISH YOU THE BEST ANYWAY <<<

chiengtom said...

I felt a sting when I read "accept the fact that nothing could ever come of it". haha. Oh wells, guess I could only laugh and sigh.

just like the others, Can't wait to read the next bit!

Jason said...

wow, great story!!! you give me hope! lol!

TopSexyMan said...

O gosh.. I love your part 1 of your story!! Can you please continue it son? Haha..

dessmond said...

Ever since I found your blog, I always envy you and Pooh...what a lovely life and what a perfect couple.....well, reading your part 1 make me realize that nothing will just drop from the sky...
It light up my hope again, now I am waiting for the door of opportunity seemed to magically appeare out of nowhere.

Anonymous said...

:]
<3!
:D haha i just like reading you're blog cause its so..real? iono. thank you. :] and....you dance good. :D haha

Anonymous said...

Can't wait for part II...

Anonymous said...

Very interesting story....i cant help to remember my own love story.. i'm with my boyfriend for 9 years until this year i have to leave him and work abroad so sad..but this is for our future...together


im always checking your blog for new things and events to happen.

ciao.

Anonymous said...

where's chapter 2? can't wait!!!!

Bearbrick Lover: said...

love this story! :-)

Dexter said...

This is really cute. -0 When is #2 coming?

husz said...

i like i like i like these kind of stories!!

cant wait!!! cant wait!!!

Anonymous said...

i've been a reader of your blog for quite some time now. well i really really really hope that you would be posting chapter 2 and so on soon. haha i need some inspiration. you're such an idol to me. =D